life is good

‘There is no reason to try to escape’ astrology says. Clearly, the stars don’t understand these past 3.5 years. It’s nice here. Running water, stability, no wars, enough food, luxuries. I know I’m lucky. Gratefulness: acknowledged.

There exist however, multiple multiple reasons for escape. Escape attempts, perhaps not justifiable, would be at least understandable. Especially after glancing over at the ‘daily planner’, and breaking it into hourly and monthly view. oh things are getting ugly.

and on a petty social note - i don’t want to go. i would’ve turned you down. but why didn’t you ask. shithead. you always asked. i’m so..pissed? hurt? idk yet? that yet again someone i considered such a good friend with amazing-friend status potential was simultaneously considering the best time to try to make out with me. and of course when that didn’t go as PB had planned, (and was certainly not what i had freaking planned), there is no friendship.

it’s good you know, i can’t even keep up with/find time for any of the friends i have now. horrible as it sounds.  and with finals, etc coming i’m only gonna get less available and flakier. i tend to isolate when i’ve got this much to do, b/c i can find disctractions in inanimate objects, so friends are out of the question. so good. glad it turns out he sucks.

Well a temporary escape is valid. sweet sweet slumber filled with turkey feast dreams and thoughts of home as defined by a group of 4 girls in NY. yea, this day can be over now.

“Nevertheless, there is no reason to try to escape, for you can learn something very important from this experience. Engaging the unknown now can open the door to an easier time just ahead.”