life is good

hey again. so i just wrote about a ten-page post. literally the longest thing i’ve written in a really freakin long time. and then the wireless went out and it all got deleted when i hit send. so i’m mildly pissed and not re-writing it. but maybe tomorrow i will. . alright i’m gonna go spend some quality time with my friend. if i can convince her that i’m tb-free. , I’m at A’s now. With some reisling. Doing some laying. See also: completely content. . and Idk what’s going on in nyc right now, but there were police everywhere today and the subway was shut down for half of manhattan b/c of an ‘investigation’ on 72nd. Then I walked E to 41st and there were police everywhere. A’s sister said she saw the same thing. We have no idea what’s going on here, but bloomberg’s giving out sketchy speeches about how nothing’s going on and to not worry. I’m gonna take his advice. Anyway. . I finally watched city of God the other night and it was absolutely amazing. . so i talked to mr p. a few days ago and randomly slipped in all of the things i was thinking about for summer. it went something like this: ‘i got accepted as a bartender, i could work as a temp, i could go to LA with E, or, u know, beirut, idk’. the connection was really bad, but he didn’t seem to care either way. he was like, ‘why don’t u just do what you want’. but i don’t think he realizes that any of it involves his frequent flier miles or that i have absolutely no money. . Since then I looked around though, just to check, and the cheapest tickets to beirut are over $1600. So that’s out. very very far out. idk what I was thinking. . language barrier anxiety makes me worry for china, but i think there’s gonna be a lot more english-speaking than i need where i’ll be. . so calling my cell from lebanon works. i called tmobile and they said it shows up as an in-country call. sweet. killer. . friday was my free day. it is technically friday. and i have to deal with visa chaos and probably shower and keep a phone-date and then it’s dinner w. some friends and then out for another friend’s 22nd. but there will be no drunken steph. not only b/c i feel like i need hydration and don’t feel like drinking, but also b/c it’s really expensive and me and my friends made a deal that we wouldn’t pay for more than 1 drink. so it really depends on how man sleazy guys are out tomorrow night. honestly though i want to take friday off. saturday’s a big freaking day. and a long one. interviews and trainings and looking business casual. etc. . and i do miss him too. and idk why i didn’t see this coming, but i do. and it sucks. and idk what’s gonna happen over the next months, but being thousands of miles away is not working for me. alright i’m just gonna finish writing about whatever it was i was writing about later - too lazy to re-type it all. (ali’s cruise, pics, whatnot..-i can’t tell anymore what i’ve already written and what’s gotten deleted..) . i hate wireless.